Monday, March 1, 2010

Husband Update

Just wanted to let you all know that my husband and I talked everything over and we're all good now. No bouquet of flowers, but I'll take what I can get!

Friday, February 26, 2010

My Husband- the not so good:)

First of all please know that I love my husband very much and I love writing about how wonderful he is, but I need to vent about him today. Tomorrow will probably be sweet things, but today he makes me crazy:)

So, after I write the sweet things about my husband in my last post he goes and angers me beyond belief. I'm a woman, so there are certain times of the month when I am incredibly emotional and these are the times my husband drives me crazy! We have this long going battle- I tickle him and he hates it and he scares me and I hate it. He is constantly sneaking up on me and scaring me. I make it pretty easy, so he thoroughly enjoys himself. I've even cried because he has scared me and still he does it. Now my tickling him is not like you think. I love to lay my head on his chest and wrap my arm around him and I just lightly brush him on his side with my hand. Sometimes I do it without even thinking, totally not on purpose. The other day I was tickling him and he said, "I'm going to get you back, I'm going to scare you". Of course he doesn't do it that night when I'm prepared for it, he waits for days to go by and scared me this morning. I was livid!! I guess the thing that bothers me the most is that he knows I hate it and yet he goes out of his way to do it. I know there are times where he accidentally scares me, but this was on purpose to get back at me. So of course, we have an all out argument and some how, it is my fault he HAD to scare me. We're husband and wife not brothers or just friends that play and get back at each other. I need to do better about remembering this. He'll do something to me, like lick my cheek or flick me and I'll tell him that I have to get him back for doing that. Those things are nothing like when he scares me. I can't even express to you how much I hate it!! I know sometimes it can be funny and we'll both laugh, but not today. Today you messed with the wrong girl.

I had to leave for work so we didn't get to resolve our issue. I hate that too. And I'm 99% sure that Josh will call me at lunch and act like nothing happened. He can be totally over it and I'm still so angry I could cry! I am always the one who has to go to him to get resolution and for once it would be nice for him to come to me. For him to say, "I'm sorry" and mean it, no sarcasm, not saying it because he's obligated or to keep the peace, but to truly mean it. This would be the apology of my dreams "I'm sorry for scaring you this morning. I'm going to work on not seeking out opportunities to scare you. I would also really appreciate if you would try to remember that I do not like when you tickle me." Now how hard is that? I know, it's probably pretty hard for him to think like that but I can dream:)

So girls, I'm feeling emotional and a little crazy (I'll admit it). I don't like feeling like my hormones are in control and I wish there was some warning light or siren that would go off to alert my husband. How cool would that be if we had some type of alert to let our men know that they better not mess with us? I think Josh would like that too, he'd be in trouble a whole lot less:)

Sunday, February 14, 2010

My Husband



Today is Valentine's Day and I wanted to take a moment to say how thankful I am for my husband. He puts up with me when I'm crazy (I totally admit there are times when I can be hormonal), he is such a handy man, he is my rock and I know I can turn to him when I'm feeling down, he loves the Lord and that is probably the most important thing.

Over this past weekend we went to a marriage conference at our church. I was a little skeptical of going to a marriage conference and only being married 3 1/2 years. I picture old people who are fighting or on the verge of divorce going to marriage conferences. We had such a great time at the conference. I didn't even mind getting up early on Saturday to go to the morning session (not to mention I knew who was cooking breakfast and I knew I wouldn't want to miss that). At the end of the conference, on Saturday afternoon, we did a group vow renewal. I still cried just like the first time we said the vows. I couldn't even look in Josh's eyes without crying:) It was an awesome time of renewal and a time to learn more about each other.

Here's to a great marriage, one filled with love and respect.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Redeeming Love

Have any of you read this book? It is amazing!! It's a book about a beautiful girl (Angel), who from a child, has a rough life. Her father is a man married to another women, other than her mother. Her mother ends up in prostitution and so does Angel. Michael Hosea sees her and God tells him that she's the woman for him to marry. I know he never thought he'd marry a prostitute. The book is about their lives, and their struggles and how God speaks to them. At one point in the book Angel leaves Michael and he prays and prays for her. God was teaching him about faith. I know this book is a sort of Christian Romance book, but that chapter where Michael was struggling with faith really spoke to me. I know Michael wanted to go after Angel, but God wanted Michael to trust Him. Michael wanted Angel to be there with him, but he knew that God was going to do something wonderful in Angel's life that otherwise would not have happened had she stayed with Michael.

This week has been a rough week with faith. There are some days where I have great faith, even bigger than a mustard seed. Then there are other days where I can't even find faith like dust (I'm not sure what is smaller than a mustard seed, but you get the idea). I've been praying for some very specific, very big things to happen this year. I know I serve a big God and He can do anything, even things that seem impossible. The hard part is not interfering with what He wants to do. I like to be in control, I like to be prepared and have a plan. Sometimes God wants to get me out of my box and experiment with new things like trying His plan instead of mine. The things I'm praying for this year are things that I have no control over. I can't force financial blessing on Josh's career, I can't force healthy pregnancies to happen for my cousin, my co-worker and myself. I know that God is really teaching me so many things right now. I had felt like everything was great, I loved the Lord, my family, and my husband. It seems like just when you start to feel comfortable, just when things are going great, God goes and stretches me. I know it's something that has to be done and I know I'll trust and love Him more at the end of this. The stretching just hurts sometimes, it's uncomfortable and sometimes I just want it to be over.

So if any of you are going through "stretching" please know you're not alone and it gets better. There are going to be bad days, but just think of the results at the end. It's like working out. I go to the gym just about every day and although I don't like it, I like the way I feel when I'm done. When I don't go I feel guilty and not strong. It's a love/hate thing:)

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Ode to 1099s and W-2s

Oh, how I dislike thee so.......

It's that time of year again. I used to love the first of the year because it was when I could file my taxes and get a little bonus money, however it's bitter sweet now. I still love the "bonus" the government gives back to me, but I so hate doing 1099s and dealing with issues regarding W-2s.

It's a pain going through all of the payables for the year and determining what is and what isn't "1099-able". I must admit that I enjoy my job and I'm grateful for it. My boss and the girl I work with are great people!

Next time you have to deal with someone who prepares either of these government documents for you, please please be kind. They are working hard and are just as frustrated as you are (most of the time anyway).

Oh and by the way, please keep my co-worker in your prayers over these next few weeks. She's going through the IVF process. It's been a long time coming and I'm praying that they have a healthy baby this year:)